Phew! I couldn't do without it. What is that feeling? That thought? Where does it come from? Now contrast that to meditation.
Can I say, I couldn't do without that? No matter how much it pains me I still come back to exercise. But meditation? It doesn't pain me.
Thoughts during meditation? They float in and if I get stuck to an individual one then it becomes a narrative, written unassisted by my mind. I am unaware of creating it. It's in my head. If I don't latch onto it and let it go another comes and so on. I either get stuck or let it go. Does the process stop? Can I just watch them pass without sticking on one to the point where I forget I'm meditating in the moment? I don't know, but I think it's the goal in meditation to let them pass and get to a point without thoughts. It takes persistence, practice and skill to let them go. Becoming the observer of the mind. Not getting carried away with a narrative but to remind myself to be present and not in the narrative.
It is suggested to label them as: thinking, worry or planning. Becoming mindful of them: Worry, worry, worry or thinking, thinking thinking. Planning seems to the biggest occupier now. Planning for the future and then worrying about it. Can we plan without worry? Worry is the emotion of fear. It then becomes physical as tension in the body and simple stress. Stress cannot help with planning.
Anxiety or stress leads to depression. Taking that one thought and letting it occupy the mind to the exclusion of anything else. One can even forget to eat. We then worry about worry. We worry why we can't fix the problem and so on.
When worry becomes anxiety then it hard to plan. My advice to self is to prioritize needs and plan how to meet goals. Meditate so one can think clearly. Exercise so that the body stays healthy and lessens anxiety; ridding the body of tension, but don't overdo it or it becomes punishment and pain. Which ironically leads to more worry about the body.
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